Friday, August 2, 2013

Control

Last night and this morning, I have been struggling with my body, getting very frustrated. Let's be honest here. I'm overweight. I don't follow the exercises my chiropractor has given me for my back. I struggle to exercise on a daily basis so as to keep healthy. And my body is giving me problems that I think I shouldn't be having.

So my first thought this morning was, "I need to get in control!" And then it hit me - nope! To take charge would be the obvious answer. That's the wrong answer. I need to give up control.

        But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all 
        these hings shall be added to you. (Matthew 6:33)

The LORD is so gracious and though I couldn't put my finger on it, this was the idea He was hinting at to me. I need to seek His kingdom and His righteousness first. When Matthew wrote these words, he was talking about being not concerned with what you eat, or your body what you will put on. (Matt 6:25) But I believe the principle still applies.

Now I know there's some things I cannot control with my FM. BUT there are ways that I can keep my self from adding to it - diet and stress. These are big factors with my FM and I know that I think I can keep these in control. My problem is I don't talk to God about these factors. I figure I can manage these. WRONG!

As I was contemplating writing this, I opened my emails and there was my devotional from Jim & Elizabeth George. The title of this devotional is: Finding Strength in Weakness. (Who says things are coincidences? Not me.) She talked about the passage in 2 Corinthians 12 where Paul had been given a thorn in the flesh to keep him humble. He prayed 3 times for God to take it away, but God's answer was no. His grace was sufficient for Paul. When Paul realized this, he could then write, "Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities that the power of Christ may rest on me. Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in needs, in persecutions, in distresses, FOR CHRIST'S SAKE. For when I am weak, then I am strong." (2 Cor. 12:9-10 emphasis mine).

It is all for His sake and glory that I go through my life. Do I bring things on myself? Of course, but He allows this to happen so that I might bring Him glory.

        And we know that all things work together for good to those who love
        God, to those who are the called according to His purpose. For whom 
        He foreknew, He also predestined to be conformed to the image of His 
        Son, that He might be the firstborn among many brethren. 
        (Romans 8:28-29)

He wants us to be conformed to the image of His Son so that we might bring Him glory. Do I believe it? Absolutely! Do I remember it and act accordingly? Very rarely.

One other verse that came to mind this morning is 1 Corinthians 6:19-20

        Or do you not know that your body is the temple of the Holy Spirit Who
        is in you, Whom you have from God, and you are not your own? For you 
        were both at a price; therefore glorify God in your body and in your
        spirit which are God's. 

I do not own this body; it is NOT mine. It is the temple of God and as such He has granted me permission to care for it. If I truly seek Him and His glory, there will be problems, but they won't be uncontrollable because He will be the One controlling. If I can get a grip on all of this, most of the battle will be won.

Thursday, August 1, 2013

Scary

This morning I was reading in Hosea, the last four chapters. I came across this verse:

        Ephraim provoked Him to anger most bitterly;
        Therefore his LORD will leave the guilt of his bloodshed upon him,
        And return his reproach upon him.

(emphasis mine) What a terrifying statement. "His LORD will leave the guilt of his bloodshed upon him."

I struggle as I write this because I'm not sure what I'm trying to get at, I know I'm forgiven because of the grace and mercy of our LORD Jesus Christ because of His dying on the cross and taking my place. Yet I need to see God wholly, for Who He is.

Israel had been chosen by God to be His special people. BUT Israel had chosen to turn away from Him and worship false gods. As I look closer at the verse, I notice the first part now. God was provoked to anger. Why? Because He had been replaced with a golden calf. Jeroboam decided to have it built because he didn't want the people who were following him to go back to Jerusalem to worship because then they might follow Rehoboam.

God had promised Jeroboam that if he followed God, God would bless him - God would be with him, and He would build him a sure house (they would be kings from then on) and God would give him Israel! But Jeroboam couldn't risk it. Even after seeing all the ways that God had blessed Solomon, he couldn't trust Him. So he built his own god and the people he led, followed after him.

When we choose to take the Real God out of our lives, the choices we make reflect it. So do the consequences. Israel wanted to do their own "thing." It led them to do everything that was against God.  God let them; but they would suffer for it. Their consequence: For God to leave the guilt upon them... wow!

Guilt is a thing that can kill. It torments and eats at us. We cannot run away from it because it comes from within. There's ways of trying to mask it, but it is still always there.

"Confession is good for the soul." AMEN!!! It surely is! To get right with God and confess that whatever I did that was against God was wrong and to ask His forgiveness through the LORD Jesus, is the only way to be rid of the sin and that guilt.

I am thankful that God has forgiven me through the blood of Jesus Christ. But I am reminded this morning that I serve a Holy God. It cost Him a great deal for my forgiveness. And even though I am forgiven, sometimes the guilt of what I've done takes longer to go away. Thankfully, He does take it away because of His Son and not because of anything I do. I am so thankful He has not left the guilt on me.

Saturday, July 20, 2013

Wanting

This morning my reading has taken me to Isaiah 2. Two verses popped out at me because they are basically the same, verses 11 and 17. Verse 11 reads:

        The lofty looks of man shall be humbled. The haughtiness of man 
        shall be bowed down, And the LORD alone shall be exalted in that day.

Verse 17:

        The loftiness of man shall be bowed down, and the haughtiness of
        of man shall be brought low; The LORD alone will be exalted in that
        day.

The first part of the chapter talks about the LORD's return and ruling on the earth. The next part describes the wickedness of Jacob. The last part is a cry for returning to the LORD for He will judge the earth.

As I read through this chapter, my heart was again pierced by my own sinfulness.

On Thursdays I meet with a dear older friend and we spend time reading the Word and praying. We are also in Isaiah. Our reading for that day was Isaiah 43. We were reminded that He had redeemed us and called us by name (verse 1) and that He "blots out [my] transgressions for [His] own sake; and [He] will not remember [my] sins." (verse 25)

I am so thankful for these verses in Isaiah 43. But daily I wish I wouldn't sin. That is one of my wants. I want to be sinless. I don't want to struggle with it any more. But my main reason for not wanting to do this anymore is I don't want to hurt Him anymore. I long for the day when I can worship Him with a pure and completely thankful heart. When I won't feel the sadness that my sin brings, not only to me, but to Him. I want to glorify Him in everything with no thought of me.

There are many things to look forward to on this earth even though it is damaged by sin. Family, friends, a new grandchild (yes, I'm expecting my first!), being alone with my husband. But more than all of these, I would have to say I truly long for the day when the LORD will rule this earth. To be in His presence is what I want most of all. To see Him as He is. To have Him be the Only One exalted in that day!

Even so come, LORD Jesus, come! Maranatha!

Tuesday, July 16, 2013

Idols

It never ceases to amaze me how the Lord ties things together.

A couple of days ago my youngest son came to me and asked me if I had heard about what happened to one of actors from the sitcom "Glee". I told him I only heard bits and pieces. He said he died of an overdose. He then went on to ask me which country had the highest suicide rate. I told him the US. He said I was right. He then asked,"Which country is the most affluent?" I said, "The US." We then went on to talk about the idolatry of North America.

I'm reading through chronologically Kings and Chronicles as well as the prophets in my Quiet Time. Each year as I read through these portions, I find myself shocked by the way Israel and Judah turn to worship what the nations around them are worshipping. In fact one king conquered another, took his idols and began to worship them. How crazy is that? He had conquered this kingdom and began to worship THEIR idols? I don't understand.

I am also reading the book The Explicit Gospel, This is what Matt Chandler and Jared Wilson say:
        ...we were meant to worship, meant to give glory to something greater
        than ourselves. So we interact with the earth in such a way that our heart
        and minds should always be being stirred up to how good, beautiful, and
        gracious God is to us in what He's given, from His creativity in crafting
        flavors, to His beneficence in dispensing the warmth of the sun. The
        Scriptural testimony is consistently this: God's chief concern is for His
        own glory... the main part of the Bible is God's glorious self-regard. There-
        fore, the main point of human life ought to be regard of God's glory.

Then in my reading from Let's Take a Walk Together:
        As we consider the Holy and the Just One, perhaps we will more readily
        tremble at the thought of sin in our own lives. Perhaps we will think just a
        moment longer and resolve to be pure and holy rather than allowing our-
        selves to just react or to given in to "this one little thing". And perhaps a
        reawakening of holiness in our lives will be a stimulus unto the same in the
        lives of those around us.

Looking at the Israelites, I don't believe most of them said, "Today I am going to choose to worship a false god." No I believe it began with small things. Like forgetting that God is the Holy and Just One and choosing to give in to a "little thing". We forget to give thanks to God for being so gracious to us in everything that He gives us from the delicious flavours of food to the wonderful warmth of the sunlight. And slowly but surely I replace Him with things.

Unfortunately, it's not hard to do because the biggest idol that I struggle with is myself. I want to be in control. I want to be happy. I want to do things my way. I am not saying that God is a kill-joy or anything like that. It's just that I don't take the time to put Him where He belongs, First Place. I am reminded of Colossians 1 beginning at verse 16.

        For by Him all things were created that are in heaven and that are 
        on the earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or dominions or
        principalities or powers. All things were created through Him and
        for Him. And He is before all things, and in Him all things consist.
        And He is the Head of the body, the church, Who is the beginning,
       the firstborn from the dead, that in all things He may have the 
       preeminence.

Idols are all around me and it's very easy to follow them. What I must remember is that He must have the preeminence in my life.

Friday, July 5, 2013

Bitterness

This morning I was reading through one of Max Lucado's devotionals. It was on bitterness. This is what he said,
   
          Bitterness is its own prison... Step in and look at the prisoners. Victims are
          chained to the walls. Victims of betrayal. Victims of abuse.

It is true that there are those who have had serious offenses against them: abuse and betrayal. To work through these ordeals can only be done by the grace of God. And I am so thankful that He is more than willing to love and work for those who have been hurt so badly.

But for a lot of us, thinking of me in particular, we have not experienced these kinds of things. Yet we have bitterness. We are offended over some trivial thing and we won't let it go. The bitterness starts, the foundation. Then the lies start to come in - "They really meant this!" Soon the bitterness has built a wall of lies and there is NO WAY we would deal with that person again. "I mean really - they did that before! Imagine what they are capable of!" The scary thing is we would never say those things, but we would think them. We would believe them. The walls have come up and then we believe them - we become chained to them.

Sometimes we become so bitter and have built the walls of lies so high that we can't even remember why it started, what the foundation for it all is.

Scripture says, "The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked; who can know it?" (Jeremiah 17:9) The LORD challenged me this morning. How can I be bitter against anyone when I have sinned against the God of the universe and He has FORGIVEN me ALL?!?!?!?!? The truth is I shouldn't, but I sometimes still do. But He, in His grace, has reminded me that I am forgiven of every thought and deed that is against Him, The Almighty, Omnipotent, All-Powerful One, through the blood of Jesus Christ. Can I not forgive something so trivial? I can and I pray that I will.

Thursday, July 4, 2013

"I Will Be Exalted Among the Nations"

This morning a portion of my reading is from Psalm 46. It's a favourite of mine and as I read through the last portion, a part of it really struck me. Verse 10 starts out, "Be still and know that I am God;" . It's a good reminder to me that I need to be still before God. Rest in Who He is. Not run around - not try and fix things - to wait on Him. I love that reminder; I am constantly quoting it to myself. My mind usually stops digesting there.

But this morning I was listening, for a change. The verse actually says, "Be still and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth." There is a specific reason for me to be still before my God: so that He will be exalted.

When I wait on God, when I am being still and knowing that He is God, He is exalted. That is mind boggling. I am having trouble getting my mind around that. How can God be exalted by my being still before Him? Shouldn't I be up and doing things (ties in with yesterday)? Be still and know that He is God so that He will be exalted.

My ideas have always been that if I am still before Him, I can rest in Him. I get to know Him better. These are both true. I get an assurance of Who He is, a peace of heart and soul by sitting before Him. But Him being exalted by this?

Why? Why would God be exalted by this? Because He can work the way He wants and I won't get in the way. OUCH! I can actually get in the way of God. Do I thwart His plans? Do I change eternity? Yes, I can. Does He allow for that? Yes, He does, but if I am being still and knowing that He is God, He is lifted up. The world can see Him and see what He does. They don't see me any longer; they see Him.

May I be still and know that He is God so that He "will be exalted among the nations."



Wednesday, July 3, 2013

His Grace IS Sufficient

I've started reading a daily devotional written by a dear friend of mine. It's called Let's Take a Walk Together. I am really enjoying it because I feel like I am right there with her as she is sharing her thoughts about God. One of the wonderful things I like about it, is if I miss a day, it's not a problem - it's not dated. So I just pick up where I left off. And the LORD certainly knows that I needed to read what I read today.

It's day 42 and the topic is Law or Love? As I am reading through I begin to weep. She tells the story of a man who hires a housekeeper. He places a list of things on the refrigerator that he requires her to do. She diligently does them every day. As time goes on the two fall in love and are married. After they are married he removes the list, but she continues to do all that was put on it. He asks her why she continues to do all those things though she doesn't have to now that she is married to him. She tells him, "Before I did it for the paycheck, but now I do it because I love you."

I was checked in my spirit. "Why do I do the things I do for God? And why do I feel guilty if I don't?" Don't get me wrong, I do love my LORD and I truly do want to do things for Him. BUT if I don't do them (or what I feel people would have me do) I have great shame. That's not right. Yes, if I sin against Him, I need to confess that and get right with Him, but the doing things for God? He wants me to do them out of love.

I suffer from fybromyalgia (FM). I had been doing fairly well for the past couple of years, but within the past 3 months it's like I've been hit with it all over again. There is severe constant pain and no strength at all. I bring this up now because as I was reading the devotional this morning, it hit me: I felt like God was using the FM as a judgement against me for not being obedient.

As I continued reading, I realized this was a lie. I knew it wasn't true, but I have been living that way. My God does not work that way. All my sins, past, present and future have been taken care of by the Lord Jesus Christ when He died on the cross. I no longer have any judgements coming against me from God. He has forgiven me because of the blood of Jesus Christ.

Will I continue to suffer from FM? Absolutely, but knowing it is not a judgement but something that God has allowed in my life to draw me closer to Him, changes my outlook. I can truly say with the Apostle Paul, "And He said to me, 'My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.' Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me." (2 Corinthians 12:9)

His love for me is incomprehensible as is His grace. And this has made me thankful. The thing is now to continue to be thankful for what He is doing and rest in His care. I've got to let go of the cares of this world and soley concentrate on Him. He is all that matters.